“my hazy story”

i had the honor of playing at molly malone’s in october after “the wrong women” performed.  typically, when i prepare for a show, i put together a set using my current hope @ mollymaterial and order my songs in a live-set friendly, logical way to start with the intention of attracting the audience, then rest with the crowd in some emotionally gripping songs and end the performance with a bang.  in this case, i sensed a specific prompting to begin something new.  i had, however, experienced such dramatic life-changing circumstances that forced me to approach every decision with new purpose, new mission & refreshed vision. so instead, i drew from my library of songs i had written over the last 10 years. while there have been many, i only selected songs that would tell one specific story line.  i created a chronological setlist of my own material to tell one truth in my life.  roughly, i chose one song per year since 2005.  to represent the blocks of time in which i suffered writer’s block, i chose cover songs that i had sung as therapy during those seasonshope hazy, as long as the lyrics stayed true to the integrity of the story. between the songs, i wrote a narrative to string it all together.  i performed this live-show that i call “my hazy story” for the first time that night at “molly malones.”  i felt so liberated by the experience, that i fine tuned the concept and put it up at “the sherry” in december for a few runs with the hope to record a full front to back version of the show.  again, these performances were liberating. hugging people at the end of the shows who claimed that my story was their story is what gives me reason to continue telling this story.  and this is why we have art.  to connect. to express. to relate to one another. to heal.  art is a medium that God uses when we yield what happens in our life to Him.  i get to share a shorter portion of it at genghis cohen next wednesday (feb 11), and again, i perform the full version at the voodoo lounge in the House of Blues on March 12.  i hope to have the opportunity to share with you the beautiful transformation that has taken place in my life at one of these shows!!!  to get a taste of “my hazy story,” watch the video below!  🙂


new website updates!!!

hi to you all!!!

so i just added a worship page to my website.  this, as you will read (if you decide to click on the new page!) has been a part of my life for so long and i haven’t quite known how to approach it or incorporate it into my website but it became clear and i am so excited to share with you this part of my music, my passion, my heart.hope worship

life can be unpredictable and worship has been the most consistent, reliable, and amazing avenue straight to God through any and all of my life challenges!!! i am so thankful for the role it has in my life and excited to be more open and share with you more about my worship journey.  while worship itself is a medium in which to receive healing, for me, it was also an area in my life that needed much healing.  and ironically, i received that healing through worship.  God has a way of doing those kinds of things!!!

if you don’t have a chance to spend time on the new page, be sure to hear the latest “worship drift” video with the lovely autumn montgomery!!!

status updates

my truth can rarely be externalized in a mere one hundred and forty characters on a twitter post.  i %22penning%22am a woman of many words. many thoughts.  also, i find it difficult to distinguish what moment or what thought is “the” one worth sharing. i don’t quite know why.  i think that in one light, with a healthy self perspective and balanced view of one’s life, many happenings are actually worth sharing.  so in that sense, one can’t go wrong with what he/she shares.  but in another light, it seems that what one chooses to share is the very fabric that builds another’s perspective of who that person is and therefore, these posts and photos carry the inevitable weight of painting an accurate picture that the author intends to display.  it’s quite a vulnerable endeavor when pondered.  and yet now, i will paint this: what we all choose to share is valuable.  i will share with confidence. i will share knowing that regardless of the response, it mattered enough to me to share it and that is what matters.  in a sense, what we share really is an extension of ourselves, who we are and where we are… and our own journeys are irreplaceable, exposing and relevant to exactly what we should share and need to share right now.  with that, my truth tonight took form in writing a song, writing this blog, submitting poems to writing contests, pursuing potential purpose infused endeavors and posting this picture of the whole process on my instagram, so here you go… in the raw flesh of my creative space.  your turn now, post with pride.

writing season shift

welcome to my website! i hope you enjoy exploring the ways the passion exuding in my soul manages to surface through art.  current update is this: since completing the heart consuming vision of materializing my previous album, jamais la même [ never the same ], i have been writing in my transitional stage… this tends to happen between every concrete vision.  during vision season, i’ll have a very clear understanding of what i need tohope hazy with santa cruz externalize and have direction with the style and message of what is to come, then i put my all out there. and then i finish. what’s next is explorative.  through the discovery of whatever creative state i’m in,  the next vision makes itself known… this is the stage that is coming to an end because now, after a long while of awaiting and aimlessly writing, clarity is carving through the haze!!! i am so excited for the season of music ahead as i am banging out the structure of what is to come and humming melodies or muttering unidentifiable place holder syllables that somehow have so much meaning because i already know what i have to say.  the weight of the message is so heavy, i can hardly bare it. but it needs to be said. and i am a vessel purposed to be utilized for truth. and in truth is freedom!